bedstains.

   You're killing me. Cutting me down to nothing.

He desaturates me. Breaking me off into pieces,

 with every word, I unlace...

Collapsing. a reoccurring ache. 

But I can't help but still find you to be so beautiful. 

I thought things were different. I thought the absence of me would stitch our disease.

 No matter how my spine bends for you, you're still unable to see

 

 We're like children,together

 I could spend allday laying around drinking chocolate milk with you or 

 dancing in our underwear...

nothing would ever get done, but we were okay with that because we were too consumed by eachother.. running my fingertips down your skin, and your hot breath on my neck...

we play house, desperately fishing for happiness

I thought things were different. I thought the absence of me would stitch our disease.

Feeding you discipline in doses... yet

  No matter how my spine bends for you, you're still unable to see

 No position or contortion will persuade you into respecting me...  

Blind to..

The cry for help,

the helplessness in my tone

the reverse psychology 

us becoming critical...  

us becoming fatal

 My anesthetic,  I find myself feening for your touch and taste

I'm hypnotized by your mind, 

it replaces my own

your breath

your sight...

distracts me from my own senses

undermines my own hunger

chipped fingernails from

frantically digging for happiness

 

 I guess they are all right about me

i'll never learn, will I?

 I'll never have enough...

you push,and I return

I pull and you dissolve 

I just wish I was special to you,

I wish you couldn't lay still without me,

let alone sleep or eat..

 

 I wish you could understand how short this time we have is,

and once its gone, theres no altering.. revisiting

time makes no exceptions and moments are fragile

 I wish you loved me,Like I love you. 

I can't help but find you to be so beautiful.