today,i got caught in the rain.
soaking wet,drenched and freezing as every breeze felt like ice on my skin..
In every interesting weather,I think of him.
I always have this image of him floating up in the sky somewhere controlling all the storms and windy days ;p
It was so beautiful,yet sad at the same time.
As I was walking alone, i felt ..connected.
to something,AND someone?
perhaps to him
perhaps to the universe as well.
to my spirit,my power within.
I really felt the fear inside release from me..
as I smelt the rain hit the burning gravel,
earlier hot from over 100 summer weather..
as I felt the wind in my hair..
i felt so alive
a feeling of liveliness.
I was thinking of bleaching my hair blonde,until i smelt the rain.
until I realized..why?
why do my hair?
if all that matters..is this universe.
is this..sensation.right here.
how would i keep up with roots if I someday truly decide to live in a forest somewhere?
far from sallys beauty supply shops..
and at that moment,
hair styling felt...so so wrong and shallow to me.
and all i could think about..
was.."this is all i need in life. just me...me and the ground beneath my feet.me and this wonderful nature,mother earth and sky in the sky above me."