Written on:Monday, April 21, 2008
I'm not numb..
I cant be numb.
No matter how much I feel,break,or go through.. my emotions are still here.I still want so much,I still have this "Strength" to try again.
Strength?or maybe..its weakness.
I'm not sure right now.
all i know is,even though i wish I was numb..I am not.
I'm not numb,and i'm not sure if thats an advantage,or a disadvantage..
an amazing quality...or a loss.
A loss,of no loss of feelings.
that makes complete sense to me,yet at the same time..it doesnt.
why havent I ended up like him,now?at this point..
i should be numb,by this time..
but im not..
nothing could ever make me numb
endless amount of sex with strangers.
It couldn't ever work.