I'm fucked up.

Written on:Thursday, June 26, 2008

But..it feels nice. Strangely. this insane Emotional bliss,of complete flaws and complications. all these complex feelings,twisting together.. I feel cracked,I feel Cheated. I feel smashed,and beaten. but I feel so mellow in my abusive surroundings, The memory of you,fades like a candle flame. You were once so hot upon my skin,I welcomed you. now your presence is cold like ice and knives,but I just let you sway and linger here,for a while..before I push you out,again. I'm trying to forget. but everytime i look in the mirror,I see you. Everytime I scream at others, I hear you. Everytime I touch myself, running my hand up my own thigh.. I feel you. Ive become you. characteristics of you. habbits of you. imperfections of you. issues of you. Youve made me this. you've created this. Malicious,selfish,Manipulative Sadist. what have I ever done to you? Nothing but say sweet words,and open up my warm arms. I pity myself now,Like I once pitied you. Your favorite song Still plays in my head.. I'm fucked up. You sicken me.